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I wonder if bruce ritter died and went to hell? priests are weird. so are nuns..im reading Confessions of a Pagan Nun by kate horsley and so far it has given me a bigger interest in herbs as medicine and DRUIDS. I am trying to teach myself to worry less about life things. I want a teacher, a spiritual advisor, someone humble and genuine enough to trust and learn from. Someone to come in and teach me a new way to live. Oh well, everyone is kind of screwy in some way or another, I suppose it is only up to me to make changes.
Besides having random urges to commit myself or getting drunk to pass out and wake up, get drunk and pass out again....I am okay. I think things could be more exciting which is why John and I have decided to take a train across the country, getting off in cities we've never heard of to explore, camp, congregate with likeminded individuals and make newww beautiful memories to replace the old sinful ones.
Our lease is up the beginning of November. Thats 3 months left, not counting July. 3 more payments of rent and stupid bills and then there is freedom!!!!!with no strings attached.
i really hope you all are doing good out there, if you're not, eat some pasta, carbohydrates release seratonin in your brain. They also make you fat so dont over do it.
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[18 Jun 2007|03:08pm] |
The Chinese Communist Party Is the Source of All the Atrocities During the Persecution of Falun Gong (Photos)
By Li Ming, Minghui correspondent
(Clearwisdom.net) In the past six years of genocide against Falun Gong launched by Jiang's Communist regime, the abuse of women has been severe. According to "Violence Against Women" reports by the Falun Gong Human Rights Working Group, very few of the hundreds of thousands of detained female Falun Gong practitioners have been spared some form of violation, such as the humiliation of being stripped naked (often for great lengths of time), the denial of access to sanitary napkins, sexual attacks or rape threats, or having their breasts and genitals beaten or kicked. In the more severe cases, the police have raped or gang-raped female practitioners; they have shocked the practitioners with electric batons inserted into their vaginas, they have tortured the practitioners by shoving stiff brushes into their vaginas, and they have stripped them naked and thrown them into the cells of male criminals. One woman who survived these tortures said, "One cannot imagine the sinister nature of those police."
In the afternoon on November 25, 2005, police officer He Xuejian raped two female practitioners at the Dongchengfang Town Police Station in Zhuozhou City, Hebei Province. One of the victims was the age of He Xuejian's mother.
Officers from the Xingtai Police Department and a district police department in Hebei Province handcuffed illegally arrested female practitioners in a police car and gang raped them. They drove them to a detention center and whipped them with bamboo planks and shocked their breasts and private areas with electric batons.
The guards at almost all detention centers and forced labor camps in Guangdong Province savagely attack female practitioners' breasts and private areas. They shock the practitioners' breasts and private areas with electric batons, burn their nipples with cigarette lighters, insert electric batons inside the practitioners' vaginas and shock them, insert bundles of toothbrushes into the practitioners' vaginas, and use hooks to attack female practitioners' private parts. The male guards touch the practitioners' sensitive body parts in front of a crowd to humiliate them. They also squeeze male practitioners' testicles and electrically shock their private areas until they are severely injured and bleed profusely.
On April 6, 2004, Falun Gong practitioner Ms. Kaneko Yuko, who is currently living in Japan, spoke at a United Nations Human Rights Commission meeting where the topic was women's rights. She talked about her experiences at the Beijing Women's Forced Labor Camp and said,
"The guards tried to coerce me into giving up my belief. They handcuffed my hands and my feet to a bed. The handcuffs were very tight and I had blood on my wrists. They inserted a tube through my nose into my stomach and also inserted a tube into my urethra. They would not release me to let me use the restroom even though I was menstruating. They didn't want me to soil the quilt, so they put a plastic sheet underneath me and bared my lower body. The temperature in June in Beijing is about 97 0F. My lower body was soaked in sweat, blood and other excretions. They did not remove the tube after each force-feeding and neither did they tie it up. The things they poured into me gushed out and poured all over my neck and shoulders. I was covered in the sticky solution that soured and rotted. They had me tied for nearly 20 days. Later, when they released me, I could not get up from the bed. The flesh on my back was ulcerated and I could not walk."
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[21 May 2007|07:53pm] |
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ooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOO to explore other dimensions. SO many things are possible but some force keeps holding me back. I have WIREDWEIRD fantasies i should feel sooooo ashamed but instead i'll drink gin and eat fruity pebbles and worry NOT. I have been reading the dalai lama's guide to compassion and an open heart. I have found that drinking gin and combining his wisdom equals out to be a pretty therapeutic combination. I dont know if that is hypocritical of me but I reallu do not care.
I have been pretty annoyed with john's overbearing, overprotective, overobsessed, meddling, snooping in my cabinets MAMA but I am coping withn the situation pretty well and I can thank GIN and my middle finger because tht=ats the only way I'm getting by at this point. Oops, I shouldnt have said that, but most of you could imagine what im dealing with anyway..
I am taking intro to computers and ABNORNAL PYSCHOLOGY which is really exciting. I can diagnose myself with even MORE mental disorders. The rate i'm going ILl be dead by the age of 30. I am sucha middle aged housewife its not even fair. I have got to do something before I turn into a ROCK. My mind is MOOSH these dayz....................
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i've only drank $1.37 of this wine bottle and so far and the cork has already disappeared right out of thin air. It's funny because i remember screwing the cork in the bottle thinking I wouldnt drink anymore but when I decided i WOULD drink som more, the cork was out and missing. I suppose that is a message from God telling me to drink more. cheers to that. In fact I think I need to make drinking a part of my everyday life.
John and I are growing cucumbers, tomatoes, rosemary, and a pine tree. WE also have a cactus terrarium I think is what it's called, that is really fucking cool. company would be nice, it gets lonely out here sometimes.
goodnight =))))))))))))))))))))
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[27 Apr 2007|09:21am] |
This black cat came running up to my door this morning and started meowing to get in. The door was cracked and as I was wondering why the hell he was so adament to get in, he looked up at me and hissed then ran away.
4 large baking potatoes
1/4 cup low-fat organic milk, soy milk, or rice milk
2 cups finely chopped broccoli florets, steamed
1 cup grated organic cheddar or cheddar-style nondairy cheese
Salt and freshly ground pepper to taste
Bake or microwave the potatoes until done but still firm. When cool enough to handle, cut each in half lengthwise. Scoop out the inside of each potato half, leaving a sturdy shell, about 1/4 inch thick all around.
Transfer the scooped-out potato to a mixing bowl and mash it coarsely. Add the remaining ingredients and stir well to combine.
Stuff the mixture back into the potato shells. Heat as needed in the microwave or in a preheated 400-degree oven, and serrrrrrrrrrve
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[26 Mar 2007|12:00pm] |
im counting down the days til i am set free.
im tired of living in a
i'm a drama queeen give me sypathy
john is such an angry beligerent fool
who is capable of evil things
no one else sees it cus\z you're all BLIND
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[06 Mar 2007|06:37pm] |
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tomorrow shall determine my destiny. i have been waiting a year for bliss
and ill be damned if the invititation was found sleeping in the cushions of my couch.
i would say that i am content but i think that would be a lie considering i have minimal friends and a yearning for less responsibilities and a hefty load of i dont know what but something to make the days pass a little quicker. I have decided that i am already ready to retire.
I DID have an awful stomach virus attack that left me paralyzed and zombiefied for two days. it had me thinking weird things, like that my cat was a lampshade. i believe i have a low immune system. i think working at a dry cleaners and touching soiled garments all day might have something to do with it. nonetheless, i am healthy today! tomorrow that will probably change, but at least i don't THINK i have aids.
hope everyone is having fun in florida where it's warm!
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everything is juuuust alright,folks.
barely alive and breathing but at least
tonight i WILL SLEEP.
thanks to lavender baby lotion and a warm hot
body to crawl up and into
that purrs when you call her credenzaaaaaaa
pray for me anyway
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i think i got JINXED by my last post,damnit.
last night i tossed 360mg OC out the window in a crazy fit.
today i spent 30 minutes looking for 'em but FAILED. I suppose
that is a good thing although as always i hate the weak, dreary
feeling that comes after. At least I always know
when it is time to take a break. That is- after a nervous breakdown and 12 to 24 hrs. of nonstop arguing, pushing, crying, screaming and almost nearly beating the shit out of one another.
The nervous breakdown was pretty neat though, it was night time and i was
driving and all the street lights and lamps and carlights made pretty
swirly designs all over the place, meanwhile two little hands were driving the steering wheel (at the time i could have swore they were not mine)
((if you have ever had an out of body experience and know the feeling
of seeing your outer body but feeling your inner self become unattached you know how WEIRD of a feeling that is))
meanwhile the demon inside me began maniacally laughing and speaking in one of those weird sam losco impersonates a 5 year old girl voices...john kept telling me i was creeping the shit out of him but that just made it worse.
actually it was really fucking scary and all day today i have been feeling the aftermath.
Out of all this I decided maybe I should start going to church....
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moved to raleigh.
and boy am i ever so satisfied that we have finally
done something for ourselves that is actually GOOD.
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